Drawing progress. (Lucy)

My drawing progress of Lucy, from 2014 up to now.

Lucy is the first person I've ever wanted to draw, with my style I never really could draw people so I avoided doing so.
But as soon as I met her, it's all I wanted to do.

Lucy if you ever read this, I want to say some things,
I'm sorry for calling you a slag, you didn't deserve it, I was just so angry, so depressed, it's like all those years and moments we shared was for nothing, you care more about them, about dax than you ever have cared about me, it hurts, I tried so hard being there, even when you say no one else was, but for so many you ignore me, block me.
Why do you think I questioned if you cared if that's all you've done?
But I don't say you're a monster, I just wanted the truth and in the end you gave me it.
I don't message you now not because 'I can't take your medicine' but because after all you said it's obvious I really was nothing to you and it hurts, but it hurts more to dissappear, so soon I'll be dead.